“Where had it gone wrong”

What had I done wrong?

I sat in my room and watched as they came and took my belongings away.

What had I done wrong?

Where had it all gone wrong?

I looked back at my life and I couldn’t believe how I could have been so stupid.

How I couldn’t have seen that this is where I was heading.

That I was heading to an empty house.

Where I would be sitting alone.

How couldn’t I have seen it?

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“What would I do?”

It was over.

It had ended.

Or so I thought.

I thought she would be gone forever.

But she came back to me.

I told her that I was sorry.

That I wasn’t going to be the same.

And she promised to be faithful.

Like she had been.

Once upon a time.

I wonder now why I took her back.

Why I let her come back.

One day she was standing outside the door and I had to let her in.

She was still the person I loved.

The only person I had ever loved.

And it had been my fault.

I was the one who was never there.

That’s how I reasoned.

In hindsight that was wrong of me.

I shouldn’t have taken her back.

She should have stayed away.

It didn’t take more than a couple of weeks before I found the two of them together again.

Why did I take her back?

I wonder.

And would I do it again if she stood outside my door?

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“The beginning of something beautiful”

I loved her.

And she didn’t know who I was.

At least I didn’t think she did.

I used to sit at the back of the class and watch her while my friends talked to her.

I never spoke.

I didn’t dare to.

What if she would reject me?

Like she did all my friends.

I saw the way they interacted, all of them, my friends and hers. And I never understood.

I didn’t know that was something I had to do.

So I sat quietly in every room.

And I watched.

And I listened.

Maybe that was wrong of me.

Maybe it was creepy.

But it worked.

One day she saw me.

I smiled at her.

She smiled back.

And that was the start of something beautiful.

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“I saw them”

I saw them.

And I knew they had something I wanted.

I saw them walking down the street and I knew I had to have what they had.

I wondered how they got it.

What made them different?

Why couldn’t I find what they had?

I wondered what I was doing wrong.

I watched them walking down the street, hand in hand, and I hoped that was something I would experience one day.

Having someone next to me.

Walking down the street, hand in hand.

Loving someone.

And having someone watching us, like I watched the couple, wondering what I had done right.

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“In your nature”

You see a man out on the water.

What do you think he’s doing out there?

Is he fishing?

Is he dreaming?

You don’t know.

You want to find out but the man never comes back to the shore.

He stays out there on the water.

Never moving.

Never returning.

You wonder why.

You wonder how.

How can he stay out there for so long?

What is he doing out there?

And you know you’ll never get to ask those questions.

You know you’ll never get the answers you’re looking for.

But you still wonder.

Because that’s in your nature.

That’s in everyone’s nature.

To understand that which we do not understand.

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“Why did she let them take me”

I had seen them coming once before.

I knew what they were there for.

They were going to take me away.

Take me far, far away.

I didn’t want to go.

I tried my best to hide when my mother opened the door.

Why were they doing this?

Why had they come to take me away?

They couldn’t just take me from her.

When they found me, hiding under my bed, I cried out to my mother “why are you letting them take me?”

I saw her look away.

It was a long time before I realized that she didn’t want me to see her cry.

I never saw my mother again.

I couldn’t find her.

The only thing I wish for in this life is to see her again, and ask her; why did she let them take me?

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“I didn’t know how”

There had to be a change.

I had to change.

But I didn’t know how.

I didn’t know what I could change.

What I could give up.

I didn’t know.

I didn’t want to.

But I had to.

I had to change.

I had to change because otherwise, I would lose everything.

My home.

My family.

Everything.

I didn’t want that.

So I needed to change.

But I didn’t know how.

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